as of now i have a new blog! YAY!!!
its called:

endingthefarce.blogspot.com



and i LOVE MY NEW BLOGSKIN(in my new blog)!!!
(thank you roy for showing it to me, sorry couldnt resist)
this blogskin is a last min thing so you cant see my profile or anything.
Shall try my best to bring back my old one (that i still LOVE)
and this blog can be enshrined as the first blog i even occasionally wrote in!! ahahha please continue visiting coz now im super free and i can blog! YAY!
and now its gonna be more interesting since i moved(:
take care and cya on the other side
lovekav

blog

as of now i have a new blog! YAY!!!
its called:

endingthefarce.blogspot.com

and i LOVE MY NEW BLOGSKIN!!!

(thank you roy for showing it to me, sorry couldnt resist)

please continue visiting coz now im super free and i can blog! YAY! and now its gonna be more interesting since i moved(:

take care and cya on the other side
lovekav



hello everyone!
ok todays post is not a poem its a horrible get this of my chest post.

i HATE HAZE and smoke. i mean ppl who smoke and leave me with an asthma attack.
rite now im SHO SICK thanks to them. i feel horrid, and i cant bear it any longer. FIVE pills ok. fever + inablility to breathe properly
HATE THIS>.<
anyways now im much better, the antibiotic worked. who ever heard of a throat infection, sinius outbreak and asthma attack at ONE TIME?!!!! sighhhhh
lets be more optimistic shall we.
i dunno HOW to upload pics on the blog, but we took LOADS of pics on grad day and i went to develop them with my mom. super ex ok! and still got many to go! lol((:
i LOVE taking pics and making albums. i shall occupy myself for the next few days with that.
since i cant go work:(
and anyways i was thinking of going to coffeebean to work rite, since they have flexible hours. and the coffees great. and id LOVE to work there. i wonder if theres free coffee.......and employee discount. mmmmmmmmmm coffee bean........my lovely "the ultimate" coffe with extra chocolate expresso beans and whipped cream.......mmmmmmmmmmmm
anyways now im in no position to do all that. the medicines are DROWSY!! sleepy byeeeeee
ok i gtg now. au revoir!
lovekav



tomrrow
its a mystery to me
only one things for sure
what will be, will be

as i grope in this darkness
i find that im lost
like ive made some mistake
and im bearing the cost

i know not what will happen
if i choose this, or do that
if i apply for that job
if i pet that stray cat

i wish i knew where
i'll be in ten years time
so that i can difrintiate
kindness from a crime

for now i know not
what impact my actions bring
upon my future, my life
upon every detail,everything

and this uncertanity
is sometimes alarming
but upon deeper thought
it seems rather charming

to be a part of this intricate web
where everythings interconnected
my choices, the actions that i take today
may tomorrow be reflected

and as i sink further into
my self-created solitude
i realise , that every little action of mine
is of much greater magnitude

and so i promise myself
that i would tread this path of life
with much care and concern
forgetting mishaps and strife

believing in myself
trusting and depending
with confidance that
what ive begun is neverending



We all depend
On someone
Something
Some moment
Some memory
For our existence
Without that one item’s
Presence in our lives
We would be
Incomplete
Incapable
Incompetent
For that one thing
Is what we define ourselves by
Without it
We would be lost
In the abyss of people
In this vast universe
Only a tiny speck
Without any differentiating factor
That would enable us
To be identified
And we would never be found
So we must always keep this object
This object of our obsession
Very close to our hearts
Lest it get lost
And we loose ourselves with it



hello everyone!
im back! and im here to stay(i hope)
we graduated fromRGS recently. im so SAD about it all. the last talk we will get from mrs tan, the last time we would sing our sch song......geez im so sad abt it! and i cant even visit nxt year!!

BUT on saturday stacy and agri and i went and slept over at eliz's house! funnnnnnnnnnn!!
ok i wanna blog abt this but my arm hurts from playing tennis and badminton so i shall do it later. i wanna go to J8 and eat tiramisu now! lol
cya
kav



i dont know why im so unhappy or rather awkward today. i just am. i dont wanna do anything. i didnt go to my uncles house today, frankly it would have been boring- but still, as i sit in my house gazing out of the window in front of the com and looking at the rather silent rain whose sounds are drowned out by maroon5 and jodi kamal ki on the TV in the living room, i feel a sense of.......incompleteness. i wonder why. ive been spoiting rubbish all day. the rain seems to be reflective of me today. it isnt happy, oh-i-wanna-go-get-wet rain, its the kind that you get trapped in while driving or the kind that ruins your plans for the day. its sad rain. and today the rain reflects me.
the drops fall slowly from the sill above my window, at a slower pace then the rain itself because their motion was stopped by the sill. dripping like tears. why tears? i dont know. i honestly dont know.
im alone at home. the TV is blaring for no reason. i dont want to go switch it off. i dont feel like. maybe this is because i didnt jog 2km today after a week of doing it. maybe its coz i didnt do my pilates. i dont know. maybe its coz of an overdose of caffine.
there seems to be a blanket of sadness clouding my senses. my eyes seem to burn as i gaze back at the computer screen from the window. it must be coz i dont look away very often anymore. except to see the raindrops, that are, today, so like me.
i was telling stacy today, earlier, when i was rather chirpy but still a little lost. its easy to write about sadness. she was commenting on how RG girls seem to be sadistic and depressed coz all the chinese phrases that they learn for exams seem to be about sadness and depression. but i dont think so. its simply coz we all know how to write about sadness. it comes with ease. coz we've all been there. and we know how hard it is to claw our way out. and so we can reflect that journey back to happiness upon a paper. easily.coz its like telling someone about your day, but just exaggerating a little bit.
ok enough sadness. i think im sad coz its halloween......that must be it. anyways. i shall go watch scary movie 4 to celebrate.

it seems hard to smile again.



today i shall blog. yes. again.
although i should technically be doing my proof reading. oh wells. 30 more pgs and then onto the next one! damn i have a lot to do for mr lum by 6 today! my schedule is SO screwed. now we (mom and i) are gonna go to gastromania too. that is NOT a place where you go for gastric problems (ok i thought that too) but its a WONDERFUL FANTABULOUS gormet food store where you get SUCH NICE STUFF!!!! AAAAAAAA!!! j'aime!!!its sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo nice. the pizza itself is like heavennnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!!!! and then the chocolate, the mushroom, the mirangue!!!!!AAAAAA!! ok im going mad. i better go proof read and make my advert for my holiday lessons so mr lum can run it in his newsletter! YAY!
cya later today. if i have time after updating my fanfic. honestly i have no idea where that things going ok. just winging it as i go along. but i helps with my typing!! lol. cya!
luvkav



the lamps twinkle
in the dark of night
as i look on
past their glow
into the moon's light

the moon seems to smile
from its heavenly place
looking peacefully
upon every child's
smiling face

The sparklers shimmer
as children hold them
in their pudgy little hands
and their parents look on
seeing their children play games

a sense of peace
surrounds the games
in the chaos
there is serenity
that has given this day its fame

as i look on
at my family and friends
playing, shouting, dancing
i began to wish that
this day never ends

so all of this happiness
all of this peace
can be enshrined
forevermore
so i can rememer it in ease

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